Tuesday, 29 November 2022
Let us continue the story, after I came back from Naga Pratishtha – I attended the Naga-Pratishtha consecration done by Sadhguru on Sunday, 9th Oct, 2022 – Sharad/Kojagari Purnima Tithi, Ashwin lunar month – at the Isha Yoga Centre, Chikkaballapur, Karnataka.
After coming back from Bangalore (Naga Pratishtha, at the Isha Centre), I wanted to go to Pashupati Nath temple, Nepal but a trip to Kedarnath-Badrinath also happened along with family before starting my solo-journey to Nepal and a lot of things happened during this journey.
Now, I am sharing whatever I have learned about the effect of eclipse – how it can impact-influence our lives and what are the positive & negative effects.
A total lunar eclipse happened on 27 July 2018 in the sign of Capricorn – it is my ascendant sign and on Thursday, 26 July 2018, the judgement regarding my accident case was given by JMFC trial court at Vasco, Goa – I was declared guilty and sentenced to 6 months imprisonment. The effect of the eclipse and the court case judgement happened around the same time, I lost the court case and it was the beginning of other challenges, in the upcoming time-period.
Depending on the individual life situations-conditions, we may experience different kind of challenges or difficulties during the eclipse, as per the specific planetary positions of the birth chart. But there is a positive side to the eclipse effect also – which I want to share now. To do something positive it takes conscious effort and when it is related to life changing transformation in positive way – then it takes a little more than conscious effort – it demands yog-sadhana with absolute discipline, dedication, and devotion. I will share a story about the positive effects of eclipse with my real-life example and I hope it will help others to understand it – clearly & correctly.
The Solar-Lunar eclipse is not just a single-day event – as per my experience the effect starts sometime before and continues for some time after the eclipse. It can be observed that normally, if anything takes longer time to do, then it will happen comparatively faster, and with a certain force or momentum, with the help of natural upsurge of energy during an eclipse. It is like the universe has decided to do something – to destroy something or to create something or both – and so the eclipse is an opportunity to do it, otherwise the same process would take a longer time-duration.
In my life – Naga puja-sadhana was a blessing by Sadhguru, to overcome certain dosha, some of them by bith, and some are known or unknown, I am covering all these details in the new article – Parents & Family. I have said it in silent words that I had chosen to go jail – the disturbed home environment and difficult relationship with parents-family, always it felt like a jail, and I had a feeling that by going to jail – it will be an opportunity to be free of whatever Karma-prison is holding my life.
At the same time, I wish & pray for the liberation of my family also because I can see them suffering, in their own way. The Naga-Pratishtha happened in Oct, 2022, and I was observing the effect of Rahu-Ketu transit.
Rahu-Ketu transit in Aries-Libra axis from Mar 2022 to Nov 2023 – It was a very good opportunity of yog-sadhana – Solar eclipse on 25th Oct and then total lunar eclipse on 8th Nov, 2022.
I did not choose my parents or family but being born in such a family I am suffering or maybe they are suffering because of me which is injustice and now, I was convicted for a crime which I did not commit, it was another injustice – and I pray that it must end somehow instead of living the life of an outsider with the family members without the genuine & honest, trust & support for each other. As I am writing this letter today, all these issues-things of the past & present looks like a funny drama of life which is no more a problem for myself but without the spiritual perception of life – the same things were very painful feelings-psychologically depressing experiences and all of it was a terrible horror-torture of life.
So, it was a choice for me – either to continue to live in the illusion and imprisonment of Karma & family, or to accept the reality that I belong to a broken family or the family values were broken. Either I put an end to suffering for myself & parents-family or continue to live in ‘poison’ for the rest of my life – it does not matter what my family thinks and how they show-act in front of the world. I made the choice that I cannot live in ignorance or ignore the reality anymore and from that time onwards I am ready to sacrifice myself or whatever it takes for the liberation – ‘Mukti.’
For a flower to blossom or a plant to grow properly- the suitable space & environment is necessary, otherwise the life may never fully blossom. In the same way for human beings to grow & evolve well, a suitable family-home environment is necessary. I know the experience of being out-of-place and out-of-environment – lost among the people who we may assume to be my family, unless we recognize & accept the different personality and perceptions of life. In the same context, the spiritual space & environment is very important to recognize & realize oneself.
An individual out of environment struggles for identity crisis.
Self-Awareness for Self-Growth & Development. Be Yourself.
Explore Yourself, Discover Yourself & Surprise Yourself. Be Spiritual.
The spiritual liberation demands spiritual yog-sadhana and sacrifice. It was a sacrifice not to defend myself in the Court case for the accident, and many other painful-sacrifices, but then the results were liberating-blissful experience. Obviously, there are other details – who was the lawyer for my case, the same lawyer who was hired when the court case was filed against my parents-family, followed by the divorce with my brother, also, whatever was going on within the family before & after my accident but the details are just more details.
It became very clear to me that it is important to work on solutions and ‘MY STORY’ is part of the solution – It is part of the spiritual coaching & consultation, may be something to learn, but more important to take the necessary choices & decisions of life, and to accept the reality. The positive and the spiritual effect of eclipse is just that it gives an opportunity to finish the suffering once & for all – it makes the process fast-forceful, obviously difficult & painful but it is worth the liberation and to make a new beginning of life. If a person is making any kind of mistake in any aspect of their lives or they are ignoring a certain reality of life – then the eclipse effect will mark a warning to make the necessary corrections.
After coming back from Bangalore (Naga Pratishtha), I wanted to go to Pashupatinath temple in Nepal but a trip to Kedarnath-Badrinath also happened along with family before starting my solo journey to Nepal and at the end of my journey-work I had written the following 2 messages
– 1st Message on 17th Nov, 2022 – Dear papa & bhai, I am already self-detached much more than you will understand and even publicly I call myself – helpless, hopeless, and useless person. The reason is simple – I understand very clearly the kind of family I am born – and the kind of people my family members are – but I have-to accept and learn to live with it.
I chose not to defend myself and go to jail because of my family and I have destroyed myself in many ways – I have done these things because my family compelled me to do so, now I will again do further more after this trip because it is part of my spiritual journey & ‘Mukti’ from my family. Obviously, you all will have to go through the consequences of your own Karma, which you all are already suffering in many ways, but I wish & pray it is less painful. As I normally say, just like the knowledge & wisdom, the foolishness also has no boundaries but I have chosen a different path with this new life and I will not compromise going back to the same hell again.
After separating in Delhi, I wanted to send this reply with clear mind but it is only today that I finished my work. Also- I requested papa for 35K – obviously I do not need anyone because I have learnt to live with nothing but after this trip, I am convinced you both or you all will never understand me. Keep accumulating, it will be very necessary after 3-4 years. (Note – It is important to mention here that my parents-brother were spending very well and taking good care of stay & food throughout, booking rooms at 5-star hotel in Delhi. So, when I continued my journey & work after we separated I made it clear that I am back on my footpath-status because I am always in touch with my reality. I have no shame to be who I am.)
After all that I have suffered in my life – I have learned to accept everything, including my family, as it is but I will not make the same mistakes again to go through the extremely painful suffering again. Many times, I have said this and even now I am honest – I do not hate you bhai or anyone else but I will not be a part of the lifestyle of my family anymore and I am not ready to make any compromises also.
2nd Message on 18th Nov, 2022 – Dear parents, thank you for everything. Dear bhai, as I said that I do not hate you anymore, I am not scared of you also. You can think that you are gyaani, powerful, dangerous, or whatever else you think about yourself. Whether you can or you will be able to ‘eat me up’ or not – time will reveal. During the journey- at Kedarnath & Badrinath I said at the place also- I agreed to come on this trip just because I wanted to support your wish to come with family to these places, otherwise I would not choose to go with you following your ways or in the way of my family lifestyle- DJ bhakti kind of people.
I said during the journey and saying it now also- either I am 100% involved or I don’t participate at all. I do not keep dual mind- double face & double standards, which became very clear about you & family during this trip. So, I said that- I have chosen different path for my life, I’ve learned to live with nothing, I don’t need you all for my benefits and I will not make any compromises to go back to same pit or hell of ‘family’ again. Long back I decided that I don’t want a person like you- my brother, to be part of my life anymore and I parted ways, when my situation & time was stable, but at that it was pressure from family then I started talking to you, also because your situation & time was unstable. After accident I kept you out of my life completely- until the beginning of this year when you called me and you wanted to be a good brother. Today my situation & times are unstable but I did not start talking to you for any kind of benefits- I thought you have changed for good and I decided to go on this trip only as a support to fulfil your wish- doing everything the way you wanted. Obviously, it’s clear now that I made a mistake which is also very clear from your replies & messages, you don’t deserve whatever I have done for you. I always speak upfront and, on your face, – you are the kind of person I always keep away because of your bad habits, behaviour, attitude. Today you are earning well- for me you are the same, unstable like always, because the times keep changing so future will make it clear. Now I do not want anyone- nothing to do with my family. Everything is money for you all- Papa also gave me calculations of money after the accident when I was in hospital bed and today, you’re also giving me calculations about whatever money you gave me.
So whatever money you all gave me- was your choice, thank you and I am grateful. I also supported my family when my situation and times were stable- today I am financially unstable but does not mean I will pretend to be good just to get benefits. If you all want to show your superiority and demand respect because of money, then it is better do not do such things. As I said, times will change again and exactly for this reason I choose not to defend myself with support of anyone from my family and went to jail, because of attitude of Papa and my family. In the last 5years I have been very clear that I do not want to be dependent on my family for anything- I have stayed with you all to support & improve family relationships but it is not possible. I am out now completely.
The meaning of the 2 messages is clear and the eclipse effect during the journey-pilgrimage was an opportunity to accept the reality and work on solution. The reality is simple – even after so much had happened in my life & with parents-family still there is lack of understanding & trust within the family. If I continue to live in illusion that everything is ok then maybe I will never become stable successful in the spiritual life and efforts to develop the spiritual program ‘RAVIYOG’ – If I am wrong then I will get my results & consequences-corrections and if it is for my family then that will happen accordingly. It is better to have simple & clear life path so that we can make conscious choices of life rather than compromised life of relationships, happiness & success. It is important to understand that compulsions of life will continue to create challenges as-long-as we are alive so it is not a one-time thing to decide something forever but to learn to act consciously according to different kinds of life situations & circumstances.
Wednesday, 21 December 2022 – An important message-perspective by Sadhguru – why we form families, and how when we lose sight of these reasons, families turn into bondages rather than bonds of love. Source: http://isha.sadhguru.org/in/en/wisdom/article/family matters
When a child is born, it is not made to the extent that other creatures are made. It needs nurturing, training, and moulding. So, the need for family arose. Family is a very supportive base for a human being to grow. But for many people, family does not become a support, it becomes a hurdle. It does not become an uplifting process, it becomes a way of entanglement, not because family is a problem, but because of the way you hold it.
Family is an example of how anything that is created for your wellbeing can be turned into a disadvantage. You see this happening in many-different ways. For example, affluence should have been wellbeing, but most people use it like poison. Education should have been wellbeing, but educated people are the ones who are destroying the planet right now. What was given to us for wellbeing could have been the greatest blessings, but instead they are threatening the very existence of the human-race. Similarly, family, which should have been a support and a means for one’s growth, has become a process of entanglement and burden for many. Family is beautiful only when it operates in a certain way, otherwise it can become the most terrible thing.
A family does not mean dependence, it is a certain partnership that you formed. Partnerships are relevant only when both the people are willing and they are going in a certain direction together. If both the partners are constantly concerned about each other’s wellbeing, partnership is meaningful. If it is all about you, either in terms of family or in terms of profession or in terms of spirituality – whichever way – partnership is irrelevant for such a person. If you stay together, you will create a big mess for both the people. You do not stay in a family because of duty.
You stay in a family because there is a bond of love that you have formed. If there is a bond of love no one needs to tell you what to do and what not to do. You will do what is needed.
But just because you formed a bond of love with someone or a group of people does not mean you should not aspire for something more in your life. The best thing that you can do to people around you are that you make yourself in the greatest possible way a human being can be. You must pursue that. The more you evolve, the more you contribute to people around.
If people do not understand this, if they think that the only way, they can have you is for you to be stuck on the same level as them – with the same limitations and the same problems and you should not seek freedom beyond that – then that is not a family, that is a mafia. If you are running a mafia of how to extract something from each other, that is not a family. How to give the best to each other, that is a family– End of Sadhguru message.