My Experiences
One thing I have learned in life that it is not easy, or maybe it has never been easy, to be able to do something good…as simple & easy it may sound, it is never a straight path…and then we may try to point fingers on this or that…but look at the people, look at us, we will find something wrong with anything & anyone…we doubt & question the honest & sincere, and very easily believe the other…for the genuine, there can be times & situations when it feels that it is getting very dirty, but then you may realize, only if there is some awareness, that the pig was just having fun in the mud…so, is it not better to just play & enjoy?…what is right or wrong?…what is good or bad?…so, now who & what do you fight and what for?…why to struggle in life to grow & evolve, and is it even worth it?
We the people continue to ignore the life & reality, but I had reached a stage-situation in my life when it was not possible to ignore it…what is this life, and how to live? And this whole exercise of writing & sharing the spiritual experiences has been complimentary to improving & deepening the journey to learn, grow & evolve – it is yog-sadhana.
I learned the basics, like the A-B-C-D…of spirituality, by the age of 30-35 years. I learned something very fundamental about truth & reality of life after suffering through very difficult & painful problems & loses, and I thought it would be better if I had learned it early, may be by the age of 15-25 years, and even better if there was a certain exposure to spiritual concept or ideas, if it was available & accessible from early childhood by the age of 5-15 years of age. Now, I am trying to do which I think is the most worthwhile thing to do, and it feels good about every bit of time, energy, & money that I have invested in the last 8-10 years of life.
Nothing is free in the world and I had to pay the price to learn & earn the spiritual lessons. It was an extremely difficult-time, and now, I am paying the price to do this task – yes, it feels very foolish to do spiritual-work, also, knowing very well that I may or may not be successful.
For those who think, my life is bad & miserable, they have no idea what a blessing it is to have the ability & awareness to serve the people & humanity, and for those who think that my life is so good, they have no idea how helpless & hopeless it feels, almost every other day. I have-to ask myself, again & again, re-check & revise, correct & improve, grow & evolve, striving to make it better, to do better every day, to remain positive, almost without any positive hopes & expectations. It takes a lot, a lot of work, strong desire, inspiration & motivation, and it tests-myself in almost every way, because we all know the obvious the truth & reality of life, the truth & reality of – People, Society & System, but still we chose to ignore the obvious as if nobody knows it.
It is like the Ignorance hidden in Intelligence,
And the Intelligence hidden in the Ignorance.
Spiritual Education Program & Platform
It is something & such a subject which cannot be served-easy and the spiritual coaching & consultation is not like teaching any other subject, because a spiritual environment is necessary to learn & follow the spiritual life. Therefore, it is very important to follow the spiritual approach to share & offer the spiritual knowledge, experiences & practices, to create a spiritual program & platform for anyone & everyone to learn, grow & evolve, and hoping that my family will also appreciate & accept whatever I am doing for them.
- It cannot be exclusive; it must be all inclusive. Yes, I wanted to do it for my own family, and my family became the source of motivation & inspiration to do it, but if it is limited to few people then it will not be an efficient & effective program even for them.
- It is the best I can do for my parents-family as well, because the biggest spiritual lesson of my life is that it is all about time. When times change, everything changes, people & perceptions can change overnight. So, whether it is the people who like me or not, and who may have done good or bad to me, but this is the best for everyone.
Philosophy or Practical?
Whether we like it or not, we all have a baggage by birth, we can call it by different names as Karma or the Karmic or Genetic memory, Pitru-Dosha, or the practical circumstances & situations of life by birth, the privileges or curse of Parentage-Lineage as per the living condition of the family.
Like a normal family, my parents love me and I love them, but then ugly things also happened.
What happened in my life can be easily traced back to my parents’ life, and the pattern becomes very clear, and then repeated coincidence, that the similar pattern may be observed in the life of the other partners. Now, what are the chances that it may not continue further, also, if we can pay attention with a certain awareness then we may see the signs in the real-life are clearly indicated or well aligned with the astrology-stars and the time-period, because the Karma is working for everyone from within oneself.
It is practical experience of my life, because of what happened in the past that my own parents-family turned against me, and it may happen again. Now, I may love someone so much, and I may think they are my own people, and I may do everything for them, but they may have a different perspective, different kind of opinions & judgements which may become clear during uncertain times. When things go wrong, they may not see or remember my struggle & sacrifices, they may not value & appreciate it, and then again, I will end-up – beaten, broken, alone, helpless & hopeless, but from a larger perspective they may also be feeling the same way. I have learned something about the family-suffering, it comes from within and it is very deep-rooted. There is always the other side, and the family-suffering means everyone is tied-up in their individual & combined sufferings. Yog-sadhana is the solution to be free from Karma bondages, and to find the answers to many important questions about life.
Spiritual Longing & Knowing
Sadhguru says – there is no substitute for knowing, and there is no way to know unless the individual perception goes beyond the five senses and the physical world, to know is to be free…there is something within you that will not settle for anything, it is not longing for more or less, but it will not settle for anything less than unbounded…to know it and seeking it consciously is all about spirituality…spirituality is all about self-annihilation.
I have learned in life – Never compromise on this one thing in life, never break the spiritual-growth. Never compromise the self-growth and development for anything else in the world, because it is the best and highest thing, never miss on higher experience of life and to achieve higher perception.
I learned the same meaning & message through these words – ज्ञान ही मुक्ति का मार्ग है।
I am sharing the words of Sadhguru, because he has been the guiding light of yoga & yog-sadhana, in its purest & highest form. We will learn more about him, as we continue to learn from him, and as we progress, but there are few other spiritual masters who have inspired me, like Neem-Karoli Baba, also known as Maharaj-ji. Just like Baba said, somehow, I was always drawn towards these thoughts-ideas of devotion to salvation, by the stories of Ram-Bhakt Hanuman-ji.
- Without the spiritual awareness, and the spiritual-growth & development, there cannot be any significant self-growth & development, and life-growth & development.
It is like, a person can have all the necessary talent & potential to be successful-prosperous in life, but still it needs the necessary support & cooperation of the time, because everything happens at the right time and in the right ways, we can call it as the blessings of God, Universe or Mother Nature or simply to name it as something ‘Divine-Grace, ’ which allows the abilities & qualities to find the right path & opportunity, to be able to express it in the world.
- The creation happens from within, and the creator is in the creation.
- The inner reality makes the outer form, and the outside world is just a reflection of inner world.
The spiritual awareness is necessary to understand these sentences, and to absorb the meaning of these words truly. It takes some amount of spiritual work & effort to learn, how to be able to identify and recognise the pattern of our own life, how to see our own personality & perception of life, and to be able to correlate it with the external environment, as the consequence, and then to be able to understand the external environment, and the living conditions, situations & circumstances of life.
For example – it is not freedom to think that we must be able to do whatever we want, because then it is the life, which is in control of the compulsions of the body & mind. It means we are asking for a very hap-hazard life, making it uncertain-unstable by own likes & dislikes. We can earn the freedom of life, when we learn how to be in-charge of our own body & mind. We can learn it only by following the eternal & fundamental, rules & principles, of life & Mother Nature.
- For some people, life is a suffering, and for some other people, it is a blessing.
- It is like the Sunshine, for everyone and everywhere, it is the same, but how it feels under the Sun, the experience may be different for every individual.
- There are many aspects or dimensions of life, and we must be able to know & experience the distinctions, very clearly & correctly, that is spiritual awareness.
- I have learned from Sadhguru that we can be suffering because of the limitation of the mind, or we can enjoy the miracles of the mind. It is all about the individual ability & awareness, how do we live, and how well can we can make use of the body & mind? He has explained about the memory & imagination, the 2 important faculties of the mind, and we must learn how to use & apply it positively.
Then, there are different aspects or dimensions of life, e.g., in terms of the time, there is past, present & future, and we must know how to remember & use the lessons-experiences of the past, and how to plan-prepare for the future, by taking the making the right choices-decisions & actions in the present. In another dimension of life, there is – oneness & duality, then there is yet another context of life, diversity & individuality, etc. These are the important things to know & understand about the life process, and all the aspects of life are separate & very-different from each other, but then we realize that everything is inter-connected & inter-dependent, therefore, it is important to learn – not to mix-it up or mess-it up. That is the difference between spiritual-philosophy & real-life experiences.
- Life, Mother Nature, and the universe has its own intelligence, and we must learn to use the natural intelligence, it is active and working within oneself.
It is like, life & Mother Nature knows very well whatever is necessary to sustain & maintain the process of life. It is offering hot summer, and chilling-cold winters, the spring and storms are part of life-process, so we must learn to accept & receive it, learn to live with it.
During the summer, do not avoid or escape the Noon, it does not mean that we have-to burn under the Sun, also, it does not mean that we try to hide inside the artificial cooling systems, because then we are missing the life and the lessons of the life. During the winters, it is the time to celebrate, and to prepare for the next Spring & Summer season. The Nature is offering everything, because it is necessary, and it makes us fit for life.
- In this ever-changing world, the rules & principles of life & Mother Nature do not change.
- We must learn to apply, use & practice the fundamental principles of life in the real-life.
- Also, nothing is permanent, whatever you may feel & experience today, may not be the same tomorrow. So, we must know & learn, how to hold-it and how to let-go.
We may think whatever we may want to think, whether we may feel to be rich or poor, but the Universe knows very well what it has offered to each person, it has given everyone whatever is needed for their survival and higher-growth, we just have-to maintain the balance of our own body & mind, and to keep the unnecessary distractions aside, and to keep working-moving on the right-path, then we will do well, as the Universe will do its own job, new opportunities and possibilities will be opened step-by-step.
Now, we need the spiritual guidance and the regular spiritual practices to achieve the necessary spiritual abilities & awareness, and we can use it just to live well or for the higher spiritual growth, and the self-growth & development.
– Whatever we may know, learn & experience, we must remember that it may be just one of the aspect or perspective. Every individual has different kind of personality & perception of life.
A lot of things happened in the past, in the last 30 years of life, and a lot of things happened with my parents-family in the last 5 years. They said something, they did whatever they thought was right, and I said something, and I did whatever I thought was right…and the time has given the answers to everyone, and we may continue to learn in life, just to be empty-within, and willing & open to learn.
It was probably the 2nd week of Feb, before Mahashivratri 2025, a conversation of 30-40 minutes with mother after long time, long story short, she wanted to say – forget everything, and I said, it took 10 years to be willing to speak, is it not too late?
Therefore, it is very important to continue to move ahead, I am not hanging in the past, and it is better not to waste the precious time of life to dig the past. In the past everything & everyone changed, when the time-changed, and I felt very helpless & hopeless when nobody was ready to listen or understand, but then it was the beginning of a new spiritual life. So, now it is all about the work & the vision, because it helped me to start the new life, and I knew that the times will change again, and then everything & everyone will change again.
- Ambition without awareness is like a boat on the beach.
- Knowledge and wisdom have no boundaries to go higher, also, the Ignorance has no boundaries.
Finally, just use it well, all the options & resources which may be available or accessible in life, because it is a good way to live. Money or materialistic life is not bad, just use it best and to the maximum. There were genuine reasons that I did not or could not use the money properly in the past, so I lost it, but then I learned to take responsibility for my mistakes or incapabilities, there is no other choice, no excuses will work. I had to do it, and sooner the better, because everyone is suffering their own ignorance or inability.
Life does not exist individually, and we cannot exist individually, and at the same time there are different dimensions to make it so complex just like every other aspect of life, there is another irony of life, that we are absolutely-alone by the individual way of lifestyle, how well or not, we can experience, live, and act in our life? And the whole problem or challenge, and the solution & effort, it is all about – YOGA, that is, to experience the entire creation as part of oneself, as an individual, or to experience everything, as the-one, within oneself.